“It feels like Ap-p is winning.”
I completely understand, and I empathize deeply. I have been struggling with similar emotions as of late.
One of Set’s many strengths is that He can stare right into the eyes of Ap-p without being hypnotized or paralyzed. So too must we, His people, learn to acknowledge the evil and ugliness that’s happening all around us, but without letting it freeze us dead in our tracks.
We might have varying degrees of success at this; Set knows we are only human, after all. The point isn’t to somehow become “perfect,” but to *keep working* to manifest His resilience in ourselves as best as we humanly can.
Execrating Ap-p is not a “one-and-done” kind of deal. This evil thing is deathless and can never be completely destroyed. It must be execrated again and again, repeatedly and forever, both by Gods and humans alike.
There can never be a “final definitive battle” with Ap-p. The monster can never claim a “final victory” (thanks be to Set), but then again, neither can we. There will never be a point where everything that needs to be fixed in this world is finally fixed, once and for all. There is always going to be some kind of room for improvement *somewhere*.
Yes, the world is even scarier right now than it already was, even just last week. But this fear is designed to make us STOP MOVING and FALL SILENT. To drown us in our inertia, and to make us feel that everything we do or hope for is absolutely futile. That’s just how isfet works.
The best way to fight Ap-p right now includes, but is not limited to, either of the following suggestions:
- Finishing that new paint job you’ve been wanting for your kitchen
- Continuing to work on your art or your writing
- Planning that new garden you’ve been thinking about
- Being extra kind to someone who’s having a bad day
- Continuing all that work you’ve been doing for your academic degree
- Randomly doing something nice for someone just to try and brighten their day a little
- Adopting a cat (or another critter of your choice)
- Etc.